Sorry for the long silence...

Yes, I am still alive...sorry for the lack of updates. I really don't have any excuse..I read blogs everyday(at least I try to) and comment but I find it hard to update my blog. I think because I feel like I keep saying the same things over and over again-P is going well, B is thriving blah blah blah...I guess sometimes I feel like I am starting to sound like a broken record. So please be patient. I do have a lot of other things that I want to talk about like how everyday I am think about how and when I will go back to the working world. Thinking about it makes me hyperventilate-I guess I am more stress about it than I want to admit.

Here are a few updates-last Thursday night we had a little scare..when I went to the bathroom I looked at the TP and found a little bit of red blood! I tried to convince myself that since it was so small there is nothing to worry about, but it was hard to believe that since I never had any bleeding with B. I decided to sit it out and see what will happen the rest of the night and luckily that was the only incident. I was still concerned about it so I called my doctor the next day and they wanted me to come in. I was worried about seeing my doctor b/c she keeps mentioning bed rest and I am just not ready to do this. Of course if I have to do it, I will do it--S and I will just have to figure out how to do it with a 19 month old and S working full time. We still have our nanny-which is probably one of the best decisions we've made-we will need to work around S's work schedule somehow--ie my DH is a workaholic and is out of the house an average of 14-15 hrs a day! Yes, I feel like a single mom--which is another post that I've been meaning to write about.

To make a long story short, I went to see the doctor and everything seems to be okay. I guess I have a mild case of yea.st infection-which she said is not common not to know when you are P-and she thinks this caused the bleeding. I didn't know this was possible. She checked my cervix and it is nice and long-she is concerned about this due to the preterm labor with B. They are starting to check my cervix at every visit..oh fun stuff. So no bed rest-woo hoo-but I do have to go back next week for another check up--I'll take that.

Other things that are keeping me occupied the last couple of weeks-I can't believe my ticker says that I only have 59 days to go!! Holy cow!!!

• Double Strollers-who would have thought this would consume so much of my time. I know what I want-side by side, something that takes a car seat, easy to maneuver with 2 children of different weights and compact. Sounds simple..yeah right!! First of all most double strollers weighs about 30 pds before any children!!! I learned from all this research that there is no such things as a perfect double stroller. S is tired of listening to me doing my pros and cons, I really can't blame him. I still haven't bought one or decided on which one to buy. I guess I just hate making a decision and fear that I will regret it later-especially since the ones I am considering are all on the more expensive side.


• Chest-this is the one thing that I actually purchased. Now I need to go thru all of B's baby clothes and sort them out. The baby room is half cleaned out-it looks like a tornado hit it. It is an understatement for me to say that we have some work to do it that room.


• Bottles-I am going to try to BF. As most of you know, I had a really hard time with BFing with B-a big part of this was his premature birth and he was given a bottle as soon as he was born. He didn't know how to suck and while we were at the hospital we had to feed him with a syringe a few times. This really set us back with BF and by the time he mastered sucking he was so used to the bottle that we just couldn't go back. My solution was to exclusively pump and feed for 6 months! It was the hardest thing I've ever done and to this day I can't believe I lasted that long. I will try to BF this time and I am hoping that it will go much better. I don't think I can do the pump and feed for 6 months! I told Electriclady to smack me if I get delusional and try this stint again. Even if I BF, I will still need bottles just for me to get a break once in a while. Yes, I will pump but I am hoping not at the same capacity. Due to all the BPA controversy, I decided to get new bottles. I know what to buy, I just need to get my act together and actually buy them.
• Crib-this is still a big debate in our household. I go back and forth about buying one or transitioning B to a big boy bed. For now we decided to wait until December. The new baby will be in our room for about 3 months and at that point we will decide if B is ready or not. I just don't want to force him out of the crib since he is such a good sleeper. The last thing I need is a newborn and a toddler who refuses to sleep!

These are the major stuff--there are other stuff like diapers and unpacking all of B's baby stuff(bassinet, car seat, etc), but as I said earlier, according to my ticker I still have 59 days to go...not the time to panic yet. Unless of course the baby decides to pull a B-come a month early!! Keep your fingers cross ladies!