After a long week of waiting...

We finally got the results of our first trimester screening. Everything looks good...our chances of down syndrome went from 1 in 200 to 1 in 3,900 and for trisomy 18 our chances went from 1 in 750 to 1 in 10,000--I will take those odds. At this point, S and I decided not to do any additional testing. We don't want to take any chances of a miscarriage and we can live with our test results. Surprising, I was worried about getting the results, but not psychotic about it, which was very unlike me. I guess deep down inside I didn't want to believe that something could be wrong with this baby.

Other than the test results, it's been pretty quite. I am starting to show....no surprise there and everyone we've shared the news with have been really happy and excited for us. It is really nice to get this kind of attention for once. I guess I've always imagined it and at one point almost gave up on it.

Okay--I do have to vent about one thing. I think people who don't give up their seats to pregnant people or people w/children in a public transportation is rude!! I know rude is a harsh word, but people when you see a pregnant woman or children on the train/bus, get a clue!! The worst thing is that they know that they should do something, instead, they look away and they pretend that they don't see you! I always gave up my seat and it used to surprise me if I am sitting next to a man and he lets me give up my seat and he continues to read the paper!!! Now that I am in that situation, I realized how seldom people will offer you a seat.

Sorry, if I haven't been posting comments on your blog lately, I've been so busy at work and by the time I get home all I want to do is sleep. I just want to let you know that I am thinking about you guys and I am continuing to read your blogs.

We Are Learning To Share

Today marks 12 weeks for us, and last night before leaving work, I finally told our CFO and controller that I was P. I really couldn't hide it any longer, yesterday our CFO's assistant looked at me and asked me if I had something to say. She is a really sweet lady and I couldn't lie to her so I just smiled. But the thing is, once you tell her, it is like taking a mega phone and announcing it to the entire world. So I knew I had to say something before they heard it from someone else. It went really well and they are both very happy for us. This weekend we also started telling a lot of our close friends and we received a lot of well wishes. A part of me wanted to wait another week, but as S said, what difference does it make anyway--it is what it is and if g-d forbid something happens in the future, we will deal with it. So there it is, we are out in the open.

P symptoms are still there...I thought the nausea was gone, but boy was I wrong. I didn't puke for almost 2 weeks and then the last 2 nights it happened all over again. My belly is growing, I can no longer fit in my regular clothes. This past weekend I bought 2(white and black) be.ll.a ba.nds--have you ladies heard of this?? I love it!! It's a band that you were on top of you pre-p unzipped pants, shorts, skirts--it looks like you have a shirt underneath-like you are layering. At least for me, it works great, I can now wear my old pants and hopefully I don't have to buy p pants for another few weeks. There is one warning--it is not very comfortable when it is over 90 degrees outside--I learned that the other day. But other than that, I think it is one of my best purchases so far.

So, if all goes well, 12 weeks down, 28 more weeks to go. I can smile about that.

First Date Was Just Okay

As I mentioned before, yesterday I had my first "date" with my OB/GYN. Overall it went okay--I like my doctor, but I don't love her--which I was actually very disappointed about yesterday. She is very business like and I guess I was looking for someone with a little more bedside manner. Then she has this weird habit of closing her eyes when she talks!!! I didn't think S noticed it, but last night at dinner he mentioned it and I just started cracking up. We started talking like her and now we are worried that during delivery she will close her eyes and drop the baby or snip my uterus incorrectly!

We talked about what I can eat, how much weight to gain, and all the different kinds of test. She talked about the downs syndrome test and S and I both felt that she really didn't care what we decided to do--she actually said this. I guess since I am turning 35 this year and I will be 35 when the baby is born, they are legally required to tell us about the test. And then she continues to say that it is a very personal decision and we can talk about it for another 30 minutes but she can't do that because she had other patients to see. Instead she referred us to the genetics department of the hospital. I was very disappointed and I really can't make a decision about it. The first trimester screening, which is what we would do if we decide to do it--won't tell you if the baby has downs, instead it will give you odds, like 1 out of 5000. I guess if your test comes back 1 in 100 they interpret that as a bad result and then it is up to you if you want to do more test like amniocentesis or cvs which will give a definite result. I guess what we are struggling with is what are we going to do with this information? If we find out that the baby has downs we both feel that terminating the pregnancy is not an option. So would we do the test just to prepare ourselves? If this is the case, then we will both be very worried the rest of the pregnancy and we both feel that this is not right either. I guess what I am saying is that if the baby had downs we are going to be sad, but it is better to know now and be prepared or enjoy this pregnancy and we will deal with it when it comes. So for now, since I am almost at the cut off for the first trimester screening, we made an appointment for the 24th and we will take this time to make a decision.

On the other P front, the puking subsided a little bit this week (knock on wood)--so I am hoping that this will continue. We did another u/s yesterday and we saw arms and legs!! It was so amazing. I am exactly 11 weeks today...one more week and we can start to share. Although, I think I am starting to show and I won't be able to hide it from my co-workers much longer. Last week one of the guys at work(okay he is gay so he is probably more in-tune) was staring at my belly--then later on that week he was poking my belly button--then finally this week he flat out asked me if I have a baby in my belly--I said no, I am just getting really fat!!

Well, on a non P or IF front--I just want to share with everyone that I purchased 2 tickets to Hawaii for $35 by using miles! I was so excited on Monday I couldn't contain myself. I guess it pays off to have your family live in Hawaii--you accumulate miles very quickly. So this will be our babymoon--our last relaxing, romantic vacation before the little one comes! We are going in September and we are planning on staying with my folks for 4 days and then heading to the Big Island or Maui for 3 days! I am so excited I can't wait!!

10 Weeks

Sorry for the boring title, I am not very creative these days. Also, sorry for being so quiet and not posting lately--I guess I just don't have a lot of things to say these days. I have P symptoms but I don't feel like this is the right place to complain and whine about it. There are so many women out there who would trade places with me, so I just don't think it is fair for me to even utter a sentence about it. I guess all I want to say is that, even though I am not feeling like myself these days, I am grateful that I am where I am--this is what I've wanted for so long.

Today, marks 10 weeks for me. I haven't seen any type of doctor since June 26th so I am not sure what is going on down there. I don't have another appointment until July 12th so I have almost another week to wonder.

I hope everyone had a great 4th of July and had a chance to spend some quality time with friends and family.